bad luck?

today:

the moment i stepped out the house,i saw 4 crows.

walking towards lrt station,i saw a black cat.

these=bad luck?

not sure...

1 thing for sure,i still not yet get what i want and need.

i wish we could get it as soon as possible...

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i want to voice out my frustration,anger and everything here!

but then i can't because this is not the right place....

='(

JEAN MAE~~~~~!!!!!

why you don't let people to comment on your blog??????!!!

why there's no chat box in your blog?

why...why...WHY??????

i want to know about the blog post title stop being evil...

what happened?

i ruined it...

make things worse=my speciality~~~!

LOL

right...i did something stupid(as always)and i ruined a friendship.

it's normal...

i've sunk lots of friendships...

so this is just another normal ship.

what i did?

let's see...

i went to her blog and made a stupid comment...

Vivien tea said...

有些朋友对你好你却不珍惜...
说会伤心失去某某朋友而难过但我从不信你.
也许你真的会为失去某人而难过但我知道有些人无论多关心你,你失去他了也不会心疼....
上次某人故意弄你伤心想试探你是否会因他而难过但事实证明了你不需要他.
不懂干嘛他还酱傻.整天去你blog关心你,你却从来没去关心过他.
算啦...你应该不懂我在讲什么的啦.
看到你一头雾水就有啦.
看了就忘了吧...我只是来发泄情绪而已.
你想臭骂我一顿也行.
完全死心了.不会有feel.
p.s.我讲这些和你上面写的毫无关系.
也许和关心这两个字有少少关系.

translate:

some friends treat you well but you don't appreciate,

you said you'll be sad when you lost certain friend but i don't believe you before.

perhaps you'll be sad when you lose someone but i know no matter how much some people care about you,you won't feel sad when you lost them.

last time.someone purposely hurt you because she wanted to investigate whether you'll be sad because of her or not but it's proven you don't need her.

don't understand why she still so silly,always go to your blog,care about you,but you never send regards to her before.

never mind...forget it...i don't think you know what i am talking about.

i guess you'll read until blur blur.

after you read just forget it.i did this just to release my feelings.

you want to scold me fiercely i also don't mind.

completely heart broken.won't have feeling.

p.s.the things i wrote got nothing to do with your post.

perhaps something...a little relationship with the word care.

Then,i saw this in her latest blog post.

XXX:

你~
看到你~
真的令我太失望了
不想鸟你了
我已经尝试了
可是你给我是什么回应~
你喜欢吧~
以后有什么事都不在管我事了~
看到你写的东东~
最后的反应竟然让我在学校电脑室里不经意的说了声“吊”
我看~连坐我隔壁的同学都听到了~
aikz~真paiseh~

translate:

you~

when i see you~

really make me extremely disappointed

i don't want to layan you already

i already tried

but what kind of reaction you give me~

your wish la~

next time no matter what happen it got nothing to do with me anymore~

after saw what you wrote~

my last reaction was caused me said f*** in school computer lab

i think,my classmates that sat beside me heard it~

aiks~really ''ng hou yi si"

well,although she didn't said the 'you' is me but i know it's me.

i can feel it....hope my guess is correct?wrong?

not sure what i wish but i think i know she is referring to me.

i'm stupid right?suddenly go to her blog,make a stupid comment and plang~!

that's the end....

well...

whatever.

searching...

vivien has found a house to rent since the place she's staying now will be sell soon.

she found 1...

RM1500.

very strategic but only 4 people staying=expensive!!!!!!!!

and no furniture =(

electric and water bill need to pay ourselves...

ah~~~~~!

now looking for more people...

want housemate so that we can cut down the cost.

p.s.i named the house banana house...

LOL :P

how does it feel when you are unwanted?

plang~plang~PLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANG~!

can it be mended?

not sure...

how does it feel when you are needed?

flying in the air?

not sure...don't really got this feeling before.

P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C.

let's put our hands together and pray...

pray for everyone that we care,

pray that all of the one we care will be healthy and live happily....

Amen.

p.s.i indeed don't have religion but whenever i face problems,i turn to Christianity.

i'm not sure why.

perhaps because i've been in methodist school since 4 till 17.

eminem-not afraid lyrics

found this lyrics and song somewhere to kill my boredom.

trying to understand someone that like this singer but i failed.

i can't concentrate to understand the lyrics because of those F word...

it's like blinded me from understand a thing.

i don't get it....why so many people like to put F word in song lyrics and worst still,

lotsssssssssssssssssssss of people like songs with F word....

=.=lll

i guess maybe because i'm too conservative,old-fashioned bla bla bla...

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

(Intro)

Yeah, It's been a ride...
I guess I had to go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you might still be in that place
If you're trying to get out, just follow me
I'll get you there

(Verse 1)

You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay 'em
But you won't take this thing out these words before I say 'em
Cause ain't no way I'm let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say 'em or do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up, if a thing's stopping me
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts don't try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he's still shit'n
Whether he's on salary, paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shit's his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a fuck you for christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he's got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and fuck the universe

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

(Verse 2)
Ok quit playin' with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap
I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuck your feelings, instead of getting crowned you're getting capped
And to the fans, I'll never let you down again, I'm back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let's be honest, that last Relapse CD was "ehhhh"
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground
Relax, I ain't going back to that now
All I'm tryna say is get back, click-clack BLAOW
Cause I ain't playin' around
There's a game called circle and I don't know how
I'm way too up to back down
But I think I'm still tryna figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't
This fucking black cloud still follow's me around
But it's time to exercise these demons
These motherfuckers are doing jumping jacks now!

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

(Bridge)

And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now

(Verse 3)

It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly I probably did it subliminally for you
So I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through
And don't even realise what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they can do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My world, haters can make like bees with no stingers, and drop dead
No more beef flingers, no more drama from now on, I promise
To focus soley on handling my responsibility's as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and raise it
You couldn't lift a single shingle on it
Cause the way I feel, I'm strong enough to go to the club
Or the corner pub and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I'm raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I'm too busy gazing at stars, I feel amazing and

(Hook)

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

a friend

i know her since form 1 through tuition centre.
not very close one but don't know why i feel responsible to guide her although i am not that good.
i used to have prejudice towards Virgo.
Why not other horoscope but virgo?
because of my dad.
forget about this.

back to this friend of mine...
she...from a broken family since she's a kid.
i don't know what age.
not the goodie goodie type and now getting worst.

i guess since last year she start going to night clubs and drink lots and lotssssssssss of beer.
now she's addicted.
always drink beer.
i think at least twice a week from my observation through her facebook recently.
well...
i can't stand seeing so i left comment but started with something else...

here:
蔚蔚 tea
xiu jie...
u change blog how many 100 times ady?
nvm la...
i guess it doesnt reali matter cz it's time 4 me 2 get out of your life...
bye


Sasa II
(WAH)哇~wan say like tat meh~
i got post my blog link in fb~
(haha~)哈哈~
i oso realised it that i have changed too much blog~~

蔚蔚 tea
i say gudbye cz i reali tink thr is no need 4 me 2 b in ur life...
plus...i hate ppl that drink beer...
2 prevent me from hating u b4 it's too late..
i guess it's time 2 go...
oso scared u might actuali influence me tink bad bout my another gud fren..
she same bufday wif u..
day,month n year bt her attitude nt same wif u la...

Sasa II
既然你都做了决定~我也不知如何是好~你的突然~真的好突然~可是我也不能强逼你~是~我承认~我真的变坏了~虽然没有心理准备你会这么做~可是我已感觉到一些事了~是的~人是要朝进步的走完他的人生而不是越活越退步~对不起让你对我这朋友失望了~

(Since you have made your decision~i don't know what to do~

your sudden~really suddenly~but i can't force you~

yes~i admit~i'm really becomind bad~although i am not prepare that you will do so.

but i can feel something.yup~

human need to step forward to complete their life the longer we live the longer backward we are.

sorry because i cause you disappointed with a friend like me.)

Desmond Wong
对不起…打扰两位了…
担我真的忍不住了…我都就来要走了…就算sasa生气说我多事我也要说的啦…
说真的蔚蔚我觉得你真是个不错的朋友…sasa没了你这个朋友…真的是他的一大损失…虽然不知道你看不看到这篇coment…
因为我刚才add你而你还没comform和我做朋友…
sasa其实心底不错的啊…!在别人眼中更是一个开心果…！
担是认识久了…你会发现其实她是个容易受伤的人…我想她现在一定藏起来一个人大哭一场吧…
想起来真让我为她心痛…难道你不这样认为吗？你会否认吗？何谓朋友？朋友的“朋”有...两个月字…你有看过天上有两个月亮吗？我说到这样白你明白了吗？不用我多说咯…两个人能成为真朋友…就好像在天上找到两个月亮一样…朋友是一辈子的…真正的朋友会无条件的帮你…关心你…可以说是知己…老实说我已找到一个…我认识那么多的人只认识一位!!!其实我写这篇coment我也有损失…就是不知道我的朋友会怎样想…担这是我的肺腑之言…你觉得sasa被别人教坏了你大可拉她回来啊…！难道你们不是真心朋友…？我写我说的话可能不够动听…担我是用我的诚心来讲…我的父亲从小到大只强调我们三兄弟“真诚”…还写一张字条贴在我们兄弟的房间里…如果你不相信大可问我的哥哥…我哥叫Andrew wong…可能他现在也在看这篇coment…　担他应该给不到coment因为sasa还没add我的哥哥…告诉你我以前更加坏…只是给我的知己拉回来罢了…虽然他年龄比我大…只是我到现在还是很尊重他…这样的结局你会开心吗？你会甘心吗？我觉得你们绝交要三思啊！觉得我说的对不对，你自己想啦…这已是我第二篇写这篇coment了…第一篇我不小心按错东西洗了…我现在有点醉…因为我朋友的姐姐明天出嫁…我都要叫人家载我回的地步了…你自己用心去想吧…再见…　　

(sorry for the interruption to both of you.

but i can't stand anymore.i was going to offline...even sasa angry with me for being a busybody,i still want to speak out.

to be frank,i think tea is a good friend.losing a friend like you is her lost.

sasa actually have a good heart.in other people's eyes,she a very cheerful girl that light up others!

but when you know her long enough,you'll know she's someone that get hurt easily.i guess she's now hiding and crying loudly.When i think about it,i feel sympathy...don't you feel that?you disagree?why friends then? the word 'peng' for 'peng you'(friends) got two moons...did you ever see before there is 2 moon in the sky?i say till so obvious already can you understand?i don't need to say much lo...2 person can become friend is like finding 2 moons in the sky.Friends is for a lifetime.True friends will help her friends without any 'syarat',care about them bla bla bla.

[jean,i don't feel like translating especially the part about his life and his dad and his brothers.i feel like VOMITING!sorry...]

蔚蔚 tea
amanda,i say so bcz i tink i dun hv te ability to prevent u being bad...
i mean it's kinda obvious rite?
me n u jz normal fren,nvr even once close enuf 2 hv te ability 2 help u.
n oso we dun reali hv chance 2 meet.
hw is it possible 2 pull u back?
i've tried 2 call u out a few times wheneva i come back 2 ipoh but tings jz dun work te way i plan.
it's nt like i wan 2 say 'let's fan min'..
it jz u wun come n chat wif me.
everytime i approach n start a chat 1st..
i dun like tat.
as if i am annoying u.
i tried 2 help u a few times...but..well i duno did it work.
i guess i didnt
anyway,when thr is nobody else u can tink of or u suddenly tink of me,
u can come n find me.
my get out of ur life means i wun find u 1st anymore BUT i wun ignore u if u find me.
i still care bout u =)
desmond,i noe she's a gud person n will make ppl around her hapi.
i've tried wat i can n i tink it's time 2 let go.
sumtimes human need 2 handle tings themselves.
alone without any source of help.it's cruel 2 say so but it is true.
as i hd told her,i m jz her normal fren,i dun hv te ability 2 do te tings ur gud fren did 2 u...

then...she stop replying...
she did wrote something about the stuff i say in her blog and facebook.
how hurt she was and so on.
i feel like a jerk i feel like explaining but...
well i think if i explain things will get worst.
she will never wake up.
blinded by those friends and her own sillyness.

instead of replying her i wrote this here because she never visit my blog without me request her to do so.
seriously,we are so not close but i don't know why i care.
and i also don't know why she will sad because of what i did.
however i don't think the sadness of hers by me will last long and will able to change her unless something serious happen and i dare not imagine what.
i don't wish anything bad happen.

p.s.i don't like that guy.
he acted as if he know what's happening and say like he's bla bla bla and stuff.
also say he was once very bad and luckily his best friend pull him back,prevent him to get worst.
frankly speaking,i think his best friend did a lousy job because he still look like some jerk.

blog readers,sorry because i'm use to speak and type out what i think HARSHLY.
i'm a harsh person.if you hate this type of human,get lost.
thanks for co-operation.
LOL~!

tea

lazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzy

recently lazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzy to post blog...

feel like sharing stuff yet lazy to type.

don't know what to type.

don't know how to type....

haiz.....

whatever.....

p.s.do human really feel better after crying?