habits?

what habits?post blog on monday...
don't know why....
maybe because of the mood...
feeling that i've abandon my blog for soooooooooooo long and it's time to update it.
actually things always happen around me but i don't feel like posting them...
don't know why...
lazzzzzy i guess...
maybe not in that mood too....

kinda lots of things happened...
1st...ruin of my dream Uni....
it's actually not good.
it's outer appearance is to 'cheat' people and covered their bad stories...

2nd...still blur...
don't really know what i want.
suddenly found out art students also can take courses in Architecture...
should i proceed?
but architect...kinda like doctors...
need to study for more than 7 years~~~~~~!
OMG~!
don't dare to do so...
what if i failed?wasted 7 years!

3rd...
architecture...all recommend Taylor's...
the most expensive Uni here...
even other uni/colleges themselves recommend taylor's...

4th...
interior design...
scholarship for interior designs not much....
nearly zero...
haiz~
if got also diploma not foundation+degree...

5th feel like taking alternative choice...
Banking and Finance...
seems attractive...

6th...
still not really know how to apply things,what to apply and so on although recently 'busy' searching here and there especially online to find info for myself....
so that i won't make the wrong decision...

7th...
don't have the confidence in getting scholarship...
not even 1st round....
looking at the Sin Chew Educational Fund scholarship form and Star Educational Fund scholarship form...
i feel worst...
i've got no position before in every society or uniform units...
what can i write?
nothing....
haiz~

8th...
yell like hell on facebook last friday...
posted 2 status...
why?
because i heard that drunkard's voice...
calling for someone to open the door for him...
i was in my grandpa's house that time....
mum and sisters when back to our own house...
last monday he also went to my grandpa's house...
called 3 times...
i picked up the 1st phone call...
he said he's outside the house NOW!
haiz~
i don't understand why i'm still afraid of him although i know he can't harm us anymore....

proven childhood...
i prefer to use teenhood..(although this word don't exist)
influence a lot....
those memories will be with us till the graves...
haiz~~~~~~~~~~~