怪怪的.....

我这几天都怪怪的....

我不懂为什么...

比平时down就对了....

T.T

low self esteem....

Does your low self-esteem, as mine did, cause you to feel so frustrated that you feel you have been cheated out of the good things in life and even make you feel inferior to others? These feelings were so strong by me that this was my way of looking at things around me. Are you afraid of rejection and failure in the eyes of others, and feel very alone in the world, even when in a crowded place?

YES!!!!!!

i always feel so and i don't know why...
my condition getting worst...
i feel like i've lost the enthusiasm of life.....
not as bad as 5 years ago but still i feel really bad.... :'(
please help me....

weak...

i'm getting weaker and weaker....

aren't human suppose to be stronger after each things they face and overcome?

why am i the other way round?

haiz............

i need to learn how to communicate with others because if i don't learn now it'll be too late but how can i learn ways of communication when the humans i meet daily is less than 10?

lame stuff....

i don't know why i am posting this so please don't ask me=)

ok....

wednesday was the day spm 2010 out.

i know it got nothing to do with an old overage girl like me but i saw lots of tingy about this spm result over facebook...

lots of bullshit...

shh....

LOL

from websites i know mgs got 5 girls straight A+.50 girls straight As and 99.01%lulus.

from newspaper, we were told this year is the best for the part 4 years(kononnya)

mgs 2009 3 girls straight A+ and 34 straight As.

still i don't think 2010 spm girls better...

the pull down grade tingy is always going on.

shh.....

anyway,got this photo from mgs blog and feel like sharing it here....

VINNY!

if you did come here,look at the whiteboard.

MGS number 3.

Your school number 10.

you work harder for your spm together with your friends and help your school beat others and getting top 3 la.

i am waiting for you to break my record.

please get better than mine because i think i'm more stupid than you.

LOL

p.s.i am waiting for my sis to break my record because our 2 cousins that got their results recently didn't break mine.

thou both of them refuse to tell me their results,they said they are not satisfy with it.

heard from somewhere 1 got 2 or 3 As while the other got none.

i've been always thinking the cousin that used to get 1st place for a few years will break my record.

now i still think she's better than me.

a few others too.

just than i'm lucky =)

thank God for giving me luck of getting As thou i don't worth it...

outdated again...

well..

don't mind being outdated when i got the chance to enjoy good stuff...

LOL

due to the class cancel tingy...

me and Gin went to watch "I am Number Four" on tuesday.

nice!!!

number four is hot.

LOL

he got nice body shape.his look...

erm..i think Logan Lerman more handsome.

anyway,number six is so damn cool.

i like fire resistance,being invisible and a cool girl in cool outfit riding motor!

wiu witt!

LOL

gonna 'chase' the book series if got time...

p.s.shit....i've been reading teenager books again..am i too old for it???

=(

better than revenge...

Don't know why suddenly feel like sharing this song lyrics...

the lyrics make me go O.o and wow...

quite like the lyric maybe because it's very straightforward...

Now go stand in the corner and think about what you did
Ha, Time for a little revenge
Verse:
The story starts when it was hot and it was summer
And, I had it all; I had him right there where I wanted him
She came along, got him along, and let's hear the applause
She took him faster than you can say sabotage
I never saw it coming, nor did I suspected it
I underestimated just who I was dealing with
She had to know the pain was beating on me like a drum
She underestimated just who she was stealing from

[Chorus]
She's not a saint and she's not what you think
She's an actress, Whoa
She's better known for the things that she does
On the mattress, Whoa
Soon she's gonna find
Stealing other people's toys on the playground
Won't make you many friends
She should keep in mind,
She should keep in mind
There is nothing I do better than revenge, Ha

[Verse]
She lives her life like it's a party and she's on the list
She looks at me like I'm a trend and she's so over it
I think her ever present frown is a little troubling
And, she thinks I'm psycho
Cause I like to rhyme her name with things, but
Sophistication isn't what you wear, or who you know
Or pushing people down to get you where you wanna go
Oh they didn't teach you that in prep school
So it's up to me
But no amount of vintage dresses gives you dignity

[Chorus]
She's not a saint and she's not what you think
She's an actress, Whoa
She's better known for the things that she does
On the mattress, Whoa
Soon she's gonna find
Stealing other people's toys on the playground
Won't make you many friends
She should keep in mind,
She should keep in mind
There is nothing I do better than revenge, Ha ha


[Bridge]
I'm just another thing for you to roll your eyes at honey
You might have him, but haven't you heard
I'm just another thing for you to roll your eyes at honey
You might have him, but I always get the last word
Whoa

[Chorus]
She's not a saint and she's not what you think
She's an actress, Whoa
She's better known for the things that she does
On the mattress, Whoa
Soon she's gonna find
Stealing other people's toys on the playground
Won't make you many friends
She should keep in mind,
She should keep in mind
There is nothing I do better than revenge,

And do you still feel like you know what you're doing,
Cause I don't think you do, Oh
Do you still feel like you know what you're doing
I don't think you do, I don't think you do
Let's hear the applause
C'mon show me how much better you are
See you deserve some applause
Cause you're so much better
She took him faster than you can say sabotage

i set up a fire while eating steamboat!OMG!!!!!!!

蔚蔚tea蜜糖：我..我..我....... accident always happen la.....不是我的错......

Gin_君： 不得不写个“服”字给某人，吃steamboat时居然可以趁机“纵火烧铺”，还好桌子防火的，还好只是烧到tissue。。还好没外人发现。。。还好。。某人啊，说你懵懂一点都没错。。。@蔚蔚tea蜜糖 你认为呢？

above is a part of the chinese twitter between me and Gin...

and the photo...

she was trying to capture the burning tissue while the flame is still big but...

due to 1st time saw someone caught fire and saw my stupid crazy expression she keep on laughing until can't get a proper photo with flames....

i was holding the handle of the pot with tissue to adjust the pot,prevent it from falling.

my friend suddenly said fire but i'm so damn blur i don't know she's referring to the tissue.

i looked at my hand and i saw flames and then i throw the tissue on the table.

i got no water and impossible to take off my shoe to put off the fire on the table also don't dare to throw the tissue on the floor afraid the waiters will see and shouted.

i just let the tissue burn,

look and it,

admiring the good quality of the table that leave no trace of my clumsiness

and

laughing like mad.

my friend keep on saying calling me blur blur in hokkien=match.

i also laugh none stop because 1st time set a fire at a restaurant while steamboating and laughing at my blurness....

come on...accident always happen.

i don't have enough sleep that's why i was that clumsy....

but i'm very sure Gin 100% will not agree with this because she always said i'm blur....

:'(

p.s.on the same day i refill my water and shampoo at accidently pour them out everywhere.

also while using hair dryer,i got my hair stuck at the hair dryer...

i don't know how i did it.

all seems so crazzzzzy.....

i feel like talking but i don't know what to talk about and don't know who to talk to....

a mixture of feelings but i don't know what they are.....

lame me.....

busy?

went back to ipoh last week and don't feel like coming back to kl but still i'm here now...

and this week don't know why 3 classes cancel.

still i'm not free.

:'(

3 classes cancel yet i cant finish up my assignmentsssssssssssssssssssssss!

it's my problem or i got too many assignments?

*sobbing*

oh yea...
forgot to update...
my primary school friends still remember me!!!!!!

MUAHAHAHHAHAHA!

just that they seldom online so we got less chance chat and i don't think we got any conversation since we've lost contact for so long... =[

never mind...having chances to know a little about them and meet them again on facebook is good enough=]

p.s.they got all those smart/nerdy look....

i don't!='[

i look lika a stupid idiot and i am one...='[