lazzzzzzzzzy=padan muka!haiz....

i........................
sorry...
mom,sorry!
teachers,sorry!
although today i only get back 3 exam papers...(other people get more because i was having exam for art)
maths marks ok la..get A1 but not happy because before that i got my perdagangan paper..
1st time ever i got such LOW marks in perdagangan!!!
usually out of 4 essays i usually got 2 essays with 23/25 marks...
this time i got 0 question that get more than 20 marks...
all very low until teacher cannot tahan...
puan seow wrote the word MALAS! on my paper!!!!!!!!!
well..
i know i deserve the word malas...
i don't mind...is just that feel like i've done something very wrong..
now i am very x9999999999999999999999999999999999999999999 SCARED!!!
i scared all the papers that i am going to get back will become worst!!!!!
that time i don't have mood to study..
now still not sure i got mood or not...
haiz.................
u3!^!^:LAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZY V!!!STOP BEING LAZZZZZZZZZZZZZY LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my mask for grad night!!!

the sketch for the masks...

front view of my mask...

side view of my mask...

mask for my client but free of charge..:'(

never mind la..i used her material to make my mask..haha=D

side view...

e=ember...

her name...

any comment?

well,the kids(my cousins) think that the gold and silver mask nicer..

my sis said the kids=KOLOT...

haha=D

please give comment so that i can improve my skill..

thanks!

hari raya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

arvindar......gave us a terkejut look...

people who attended plus 2 more late comers who are not in the pic...

today i went siti's house.
siti=my classmate.

1st time went to malay's house to celebrate raya.

i love the food especiaslly the chicken!!!

something like rendang+curry...

very delicious!yum yum yum~

haha!

one of the latecomer(suet kee),she got her contact lens...

she tried to wear it there.

almost an hour only she able to put the contact lens in her eyes with the help of siti's mother/sister(not sure...)haha!

i planned to buy contact lens too to use on grad night because my table is far away from stage!!!

i can't see a thing leh and if i wear my glasses,

how am i suppose to wear the mask?

BUT

after i saw the way suet kee wear contact lens....i feel like...

ARGH!I DON'T WANT!!!

but when other people uses her lens to wear,

they can wear easily...

they said it's because that suet kee's eyes are too small to put the lens in...

i wish i will be able to put it in easier IF i buy contact lens...

sing k!

people that go sing k...unknown,amanda(birthday girl),vinny sis,vivien

amanda,vivien,vinny

kuso!!!搞怪！

yesterday,i went to sing k!

to celebrate amanda's birthday...

actually yesterday not her birthday.her birthday is on n16Sept...same with kole.

born on 16 Sept 1992!

i know her since form 1...in tuition classes.

she's a cheerful girl.

yesterday while walking together,i feel so.....

so...SHORT!!!

my sis taller than me and she's taller than my sis!!!!!!!!!!

(crying)wuwuwuwuwu..........

her friends all fong fei gei...all didn't appear..

said suddenly busy and bla bla bla...

we enter k box at 1++pm..

sing until 3pm only another 2 of her friends came it.

before the 2 come in,we kind of overhigh!

stand on the sofa and sing until out of tune!haha!:D

luckily i went,if not she'll be alone for hours...

erm....sing k quite fun geh because this is the first time i sing until stand on the sofa...

guess what?

i am the one who started to stand on the sofa!haha!

i seldom go out with friends because friends don't usually ask me out=(

i rarely ask friends out too..hehe...

but even if i ask them,they won't be able to come.

what's the point asking?

a lot of teenagers always shopping and go out with friends.

i didn't.

therefore,i decided that i want to appriciate the time being a teenager because i am getting older.

my teenage moment won't be long.

i want to go out whenever i got a chance.

i want to have something to be remember not emptiness................

kole's birthday!

yesterday was kole's birthday.
from her blog i found out that less than 10 people wished her on the actual day.
she was kind of sad.
i really cannot stand,feel like telling her that we are celebrating for her a day after.
why celebrate a day later?
well,to prevent her thinking that it is a birthday party!haha:D
the stay-back in her mind will be for tuition not party!
knowing nothing=surprise!

kole is kind of blur.
when she saw me staying back,she actually believed that nobody takes me home.
i need to wait until 3 something...haha!
she accompanied me although i can feel that she want to join her gang.
i'm used to be alone.it doesn't really matter although sometimes walking alone is kind of scary.
not the feeling that got ghosts around me.
is the lonely walk will make me think a lot of stupid stuff like...
i am not suppose to be here,
i suppose to be no where,
i am not suppose to be seen.
all these much more scarier than meeting ghosts.
kole!thanks for accompanying me.if not i think i sure ran away before the party start..haha!

a few weeks before her birthday,i sms yjm.told her that kole wish to have a birthday party.
is there anyone planning anything or celebrating for her?
she said no...so,i told her to make one and it is a good time for her to be a good bro.haha!
i didn't know what they are going to do,i only did what i think i should do.

i made a photo album for her 2 put today's memories,a log book don't know for what and a big card full of all her friends wishes!haha:D

photo album front page....

birthday card front page...

inside the birthday card....

back...

front....

that card almost failed!i gave alice last week through t.siew yee and yesterday when i sms alice,she said the card is blank!nobody write anything yet!because she didn't give it to anyone!
i was like OMG!!!
today morning,alice told me she gave to yjm.
i was like'phew....'
at least she is more responsible than alice..haha!

and actually i don't plan to attend the surprise birthday party.i was so not close with most of them.i don't feel like going....
because of the card that almost failed,i went to the party to make sure it is full...
haha:D
stupid right?
but that is not the main reason la..
yesterday saw kole extremely sad,
so i decided to go,
to see the difference of her expression before and after the party!

i'm kind of happy although i didn't talk much to the people that attend.
i didn't really joined the whole thing but i can feel the atmosphere...
the happy atmosphere around...
proven that it doesn't need to be our own party to be happy,
it depends to ourselves,
our own mood and our way of thinking....
i like that feeling although it wasn't my birthday party..haha!

in my little limited brain i asked myself:"do i wish to have a birthday party?
no..i don't think so.maybe i don't want to accept the truth that i only got a few friends.
the truth that not many people will attend..."

a dog is better than me...:(

last saturday i heard the dog that my grandpa brought back start barking!
i know in you all's opinion,a dog bark=normal but this dog is different.
this dog got human phobia...just like me.haha!:D
the dog usually ran away when it saw human except my grandpa...
and i didn't hear it bark before.last saturday was the 1st time i heard it bark.
after 2 weeks or more,the dog start barking.It begin to fear less human...
but the dog scared me!i don't know why...not only dog,human also got some(last time a lot) scared me.maybe because of my look.i don't smile much....haha:D
i'm wondering when will i be okay,when will i recover from human phobia.haha:D
let's guess the dog will recover 1st or me..haha!

mum...we will be good...

today,my mum is going to england...
i wish she will get through the kastam there...
my youngest sis cried for days,asking her not to go...
she also cried until vomited...
and she made me feel like crying too...
to be honest...i did cried but i don't think someone saw it...
of course after someone read my blog,the person will know.
i don't mind as long as the someone didn't see me crying.
haha!

yesterday my sis told me that my mum read my blog!!!
she read everything!
AH!!!!!!!!!i was soooo surprise but i expected it will happen one day...
when i mentioned about this last night,she just smile and walk away.
today morning while eating dim sum...
she mentioned about the interior design thing...
she asked me what the counselor told me.
i said she told me to find her after trial and also will find some info about colleges/universities that got art course....
my mum said not she doesn't want to let me take art...only we don't have money...
waste money...
she want me to try to get scholarship...
i don't know how to get,
i don't know how to apply,
i don't know anything and most of all...
i don't think i got the ability to get scholarships...
even if i able to get 1...i am not confident enough to maintain the result that i should...
i don't know what to do...
i feel sooooooooo.....
useless...
haiz........
but,mum i promise you i will try my very best!
and sorry x99999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999 because i always make you angry,sad,worry and so on......
SORRY~!

a mask...

only RM4..

for hyun jae to see...

haha!

i don't like the pink part....

i am going to modify it although still don't have any idea:(