from her blog i found out that less than 10 people wished her on the actual day.
she was kind of sad.
i really cannot stand,feel like telling her that we are celebrating for her a day after.
why celebrate a day later?
well,to prevent her thinking that it is a birthday party!haha:D
the stay-back in her mind will be for tuition not party!
knowing nothing=surprise!
kole is kind of blur.
when she saw me staying back,she actually believed that nobody takes me home.
i need to wait until 3 something...haha!
she accompanied me although i can feel that she want to join her gang.
i'm used to be alone.it doesn't really matter although sometimes walking alone is kind of scary.
not the feeling that got ghosts around me.
is the lonely walk will make me think a lot of stupid stuff like...
i am not suppose to be here,
i suppose to be no where,
i am not suppose to be seen.
all these much more scarier than meeting ghosts.
kole!thanks for accompanying me.if not i think i sure ran away before the party start..haha!
a few weeks before her birthday,i sms yjm.told her that kole wish to have a birthday party.
is there anyone planning anything or celebrating for her?
she said no...so,i told her to make one and it is a good time for her to be a good bro.haha!
i didn't know what they are going to do,i only did what i think i should do.
i made a photo album for her 2 put today's memories,a log book don't know for what and a big card full of all her friends wishes!haha:D
photo album front page....
birthday card front page...
inside the birthday card....
back...
front....that card almost failed!i gave alice last week through t.siew yee and yesterday when i sms alice,she said the card is blank!nobody write anything yet!because she didn't give it to anyone!
i was like OMG!!!
today morning,alice told me she gave to yjm.
i was like'phew....'
at least she is more responsible than alice..haha!
and actually i don't plan to attend the surprise birthday party.i was so not close with most of them.i don't feel like going....
because of the card that almost failed,i went to the party to make sure it is full...
haha:D
stupid right?
but that is not the main reason la..
yesterday saw kole extremely sad,
so i decided to go,
to see the difference of her expression before and after the party!
i'm kind of happy although i didn't talk much to the people that attend.
i didn't really joined the whole thing but i can feel the atmosphere...
the happy atmosphere around...
proven that it doesn't need to be our own party to be happy,
it depends to ourselves,
our own mood and our way of thinking....
i like that feeling although it wasn't my birthday party..haha!
in my little limited brain i asked myself:"do i wish to have a birthday party?
no..i don't think so.maybe i don't want to accept the truth that i only got a few friends.
the truth that not many people will attend..."
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