i failed...

everyone!punch me!!!
i failed to not online...
haiz......
yesterday or the day before...i can't remember...
i read someone's blog...
talking about birthday party/birthday celebration again...
i'm kind of jealous...
weird...
i seldom jealous...
i wish i'll also get the chance to have some kind of birthday celebration but...
but i'm not sure do i really want to have one...
family?
usually buy a cake/use the cake for father's day as my birthday cake.
eat cake...
that's all.
friends?
they won't have the time to celebrate with me...
i'm a nobody...
a nobody....
even IF i get the birthday celebration,
i don't think it will be fun...
those friends i'm close with not close with each other....
everything will be weird...
better don't have...
i'll imagine my dream birthday party...
perhaps it will be better.
dream~~~
i'm dreaming~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~